Hi everyone. Oh, what's that, you say? Who is this person talking to us? There's no way it's the person who abandoned us back in May. Once she had the audacity to leave us out alone in the cold for almost 4 months, she wouldn't come crawling back here begging us for forgiveness. She wouldn't have the guts.
Well, guess what? That's all true -- except for the last part. I humbly prostrate myself before you, dear readers, and beg that you take me back. Read my blog, love me again, don't hate me forever! I'm also using the cutest pouty face EVER to get my point across. If that doesn't work, maybe this will...
So now that we have that out of our system, hello my friends. I've missed you. I know you may be reading that and sobbing into your pint of ice cream saying to the screen "no you haven't. If you had, you wouldn't have left us!" But just know, to the bottom of the delicious caramel core and beyond, I have missed you.
I wish I could tell you that I had a great reason. That I'm down 50 pounds, living life, doing triathlons, curing cancer, having a baby, moving somewhere new, taking up painting... But all that I can tell you, and it's the honest to goodness truth -- is that I have just been living my life. Nothing exciting to report, no earth-shattering news or big life changes. I've been enjoying myself. :)
Sometimes I find that if I try to force myself to write something meaningful, it doesn't come. It's not really that it sounds stilted and fake, it's just that it doesn't come out. I don't want to create something not worth others viewing - what's the fun in that? I want you to read this and come out more enriched in the end. It may not happen on this one exactly, but at least you will know that I am still alive, and taking way too much photos of my dogs, as per usual.
The Bettering Mandy Campaign has hit a stall, and I'm upset about that. But just upset at myself because I know I am capable of better, and I know that I have goals to achieve. I'm feeling physically uncomfortable, and can tell that I have put on a lot of weight. I'm getting way off track with the goals I've had before, and also throwing money into things that I'm not even pretending to be utilizing now, like Weight Watchers and a gym membership. In short? I've gotten lazy. And now it's time to get back up and moving again. David and his mom and I are going to Mexico over Thanksgiving break, and I want to be comfortable on the airplane. I don't so much worry about looking "cute" in my swim suit, because I never really care about that (that's the honest truth!)... I just want to be comfortable and enjoy my trip. And losing weight and getting healthier to get in gear for it will be a huge factor in that. Mind you, I'm going to eat and drink up a storm while I'm there -- but I may as well allow it to be a splurge instead of just another day, right?
I vow to all of you that I'm back in it to win it. I know I've said that before, and I'm sure I will say it again. And I need you all to remind me of that, and keep me moving along. It takes a village to raise a healthier Mandy, I'm finding. So feel free to buy some real estate, and let's make this village a fun one, okay?
Until next time (which will be VERY soon, I swear!) my friends. <3